This morning I strapped on my sports bra, threw on leggings
and a t-shirt and walked up to the beach (no shoes of course) with my best girl
for what was going to be a “serious” run. The beach was beautifully empty and
we started our run. Sadie is actually much faster than I am and now runs off
leash really well. Sadie had something else in mind than doing a “serious” run.
Instead we jogged and played for a long time. Laughter came out of me for no
reason at all. Maybe this is what it is like to be a kid. I was always a
serious kid though. We then strolled on the beach and clarity and reflection
hit me out of nowhere. I’m hoping I can get it all down. So here it goes and
hopefully it will help you reflect or be inspired.
This past year has been a challenging one and I do love
myself some challenges but this was the tops so far. I’ve learned a lot and I
am in a better place. The biggest thing is that I am comfortable in my body.
I’m a little curvier and softer than last year at this time but I’m healthier. And
I’m okay with the curves as I know that can change once some of the stress from
my board exams are over. Stress does some crazy things to my body. The curves
are just hiding a healthy body. My digestive system is on point, my adrenals
are healing and my hormones are more in balance. I still have to work on my
EFA’s (essential fatty acids). Last year I was leaner and eating what someone I
trusted coached me to do. I was training and enjoying it but unaware of the
beating I was giving my body without proper nutrition. Yes I was “Paleo” but I
was missing some key components. I’m glad that person coached me even if it was
into an unhealthy body system because I learned so much. You have to look at
each person’s bio-individuality, which I kept thinking during the process last
year but I was hoping that if I did what others did I would look like them.
Don’t we all feel like that at points in our life. Talking about nutrition I
will save for my company blog. So I’m curvier. I’m happy. And I’m healed (well
almost). I know a great deal more about nutrition from my own experience and
the really cool clients I have in my new practice.
I’m dealing with my stress better and it does push me to be
successful. But at times I forget to fit in other aspects of health and
enjoying life. That’s been tough with moving, hurricane relief (which is never
ending), starting two new contracts and ending another, taking my board exam
for licensing in my counseling field (that was a beast of an exam in an 85
degree room), being enrolled in nutritional therapy practitioner course (big
finals and practical coming up on June 8th), starting my own
business and seeing clients. Oh and wait tomorrow I go to another training to
take on another contract back up in Philly. So there has been a lot on my plate
and I haven’t really stopped to think about everything I’ve accomplished. I set
my goals and I reach them but then I forget to sit back and acknowledge them.
So yes I’m ringing my own bell right now. I deserve a pat on the back.
There was more reflection on the beach this morning but I
can’t seem to get it all out of my head. When will there be a machine that can
type what I am thinking!?! It would make my life easier.
I’m setting a new goal is that on mornings that I don’t have
a client scheduled early or I’m not personal training someone at 5 am. I’m
going to stroll on the beach with my best girl. I’m going to take time to play
not just start training hard again. I’m hoping to find a yoga studio I like
down the shore or maybe I will just do my own on the beach in the morning. I’m
going to continue to work on myself because that is never ending as I like t
challenge and learn new things. Before I finished this nutrition program I
enrolled in another course. I’m going to garden and maybe read a fiction book
again. I’m going to start writing down my recipes. I’m going to look into
starting my own company to cook for others. Figuring out what to charge and
finding the time is going to be a challenge. I wish I could do it for no cost.
I’m going to try to unclutter my life.
OK that was more goals then I planned on writing and I have
more in my head.
The point of this was that I never thought I’d be
comfortable in my body. But I think now that my internal body is healthy, I am
comfortable. The composition will change when I really want it too. For now I’m
healthy and happy and curvy. Isn’t that what we are supposed to be.
